Remember Me?

Hello, my friends! It’s been a while since I’ve posted. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say- quite the contrary! A few times each week I sit down at the keyboard to share a profound thought, but to no avail. My head is just so full of adulting that there just doesn’t seem to be any space for meaningful words to surface.

I took a little trip on the train up to Connecticut to visit an old friend, filed (and paid!) my taxes (in full! on time!), went to the dentist, renewed my car registration, found a doctor outside of the insurance system and scheduled (an 85! minute) new patient session. I witnessed the springtime explosion of blossoms and birdsong in my neighborhood.

I loosened my grasp on a relationship that was fading, made a new friend and learned how to play Rummikub. I highly recommend all these things!

I’ve spent a lot of time in the local oxygen chamber detoxing from civilization. This is also my physical/mental/emotional/spiritual therapy and 100% free of cost.

I lopped off half my hair at my biannual appointment. Hardly anyone noticed. Really. It makes me wonder why anybody bothers with blowouts.

Ordinary, everyday stuff like this just seems to take a lot of energy. I’m not particularly adept at these life admin tasks and it seems that every step requires four sub-steps to complete. Not to mention remembering the passwords and the bleeping two-step verifications.

I made organic Greek yogurt and used some of the whey to lacto-ferment radishes. (The jury is still out on the radishes. They should be ready for a taste test tomorrow.) I’ve mastered the art of lazy bone broth preparation, whipped up a new face moisturizer and learned the ILU abdominal self-massage technique. These things are all a bit… extra, but none of them especially time consuming. I imagine the benefits very much outweigh the efforts.

When you add the shopping and cooking and the working and emails, well my mind has just been full.

I joke that eventually my morning and nighttime routines will meet in the middle and I’ll spend my days managing supplements, going for walks, getting fresh air and sunshine and chopping vegetables on endless repeat.

I don’t have anything profound to offer but I did want to drop by to say hello and that you’re not alone if you feel like it’s hard to settle into a creative project lately. None of the tasks I’ve inventoried above are monumental and (excepting the radish experiment) most are not unique to me.

I only mean to point out that there is a constant demand on the limited attention we all have and it can make anything beyond the basics feel like a Herculean quest. Most people work more than me, many have caregiving responsibilities or manage debilitating health issues. It can be A LOT just to get through the day. Self-criticism only adds fuel to the fire, so be kind to yourself.

Won’t you join me in a moment of respite from all the doing-ness? Perhaps you’ll like this eight second video I recorded on my walk yesterday. Sitting by the creek was so soothing that I wanted to bring it home with me.

Perhaps place a hand on your heart or belly and take one deep breath, turning loving attention inwards for just a moment.

If you have any tips about managing all the life admin without getting lost in the swirl of activity, do tell! Or if you’re up to your eyeballs in never-ending chores and tipping into overwhelm, drop a note in the comments and be witnessed in it. Whatever phase you’re in, you’re welcome here.