I never thought this would happen…

I never thought this would happen…

I don’t actually feel like writing about Reiki today.

This is a first!

Maybe because I taught two classes this week and already got a lot of words out.

Or maybe because I’m really hunkered down in my practice. I’ve upgraded my morning routine (again), and the healing energy is flowing strong.

In case you didn’t know, the healing process is sometimes an uphill slog. The more time I spend marinating in Reiki, the more unhealthy habits, stress, anxiety, tension, coping mechanisms, patterns of avoiding emotions, and limiting beliefs stand out.

Once all the blockages are highlighted, it’s impossible to pretend they aren’t there anymore. Once you take away the addictions and numbing strategies, well… then you feel all the feels.

And once you stop putting junk in your mouth, the body starts detoxing stored chemicals.

In case you didn’t know, the detoxification (physical and emotional) process is generally uncomfortable. 😳

Once you start moving your body in different ways, underused muscles start to wake up and complain. I’m getting out more often for hikes, which is awesome for my spirit but yikes, my calves ache.

It takes a lot of energy to train your body to move in alignment when it hasn’t for decades. I love taking Gyrokinesis classes, but I feel so fatigued after the first 20 minutes. Not because it’s physically challenging, but because rewiring patterns requires a lot of cellular energy.

This assignment I was given at the new moon of learning to play is a doozy. I’m nearly 53 years old and my neural pathways run deep. I haven’t yet found any that are linked to play and plenty that are deeply opposed to it. And underneath this resistance is quite a bit of suppressed emotion.

Reiki can help with all of these things.

It IS helping with all of these things.

I wouldn’t be able to address such a wide array of goals if I didn’t have spiritually guided life-force energy on a steady drip-feed. It keeps the discomfort at tolerable levels so I don’t feel the need to check out, keeps me connected with my reasons for doing all this, helps me access my will power, clarity and courage to face the wounds of past, and gives the extra oomph needed to keep going when things feel overwhelming.

Meeting the stored emotions requires effort, compassion, and quite frankly, hard work. It’s the only way I know how to fully restore the flow of life-force energy in the body and regain full access to my innate wisdom and power.

Avoiding the emotions (let’s face it, I was dissociated for 30+ years, so that’s quite a backlog plus a hearty supply of defensive mechanisms to disassemble) is much easier in the moment. BUT- it’s also the source of every action not aligned with my goals, my values, my very essence. Every time I wondered why I did (or didn’t do) something I’d promised I would (or wouldn’t), hindsight shows it was spurred by the avoidance of an uncomfortable feeling.

Add to that the toxic chemical stew of stress hormones from holding emotions in and the resulting tension and fatigue… well, let’s just say the long-term effects are undesirable. Facing these challenges is an investment in my future wellness. Keeping my eye on the prize of healthy aging and maximizing my capacity for love, creativity, connection and wellness is what keeps me motivated.

Reiki makes the deep healing work possible for me. Otherwise, I’d need an entire team of holistic healers on call. Instead, I have unlimited access to healing energy at my fingertips.

Which is freaking awesome and I’m extremely grateful.

And at the same time, this journey can be challenging at times. I committed to being real with my posts and I realize that in my enthusiasm, I might sometimes give the impression that this path is full of bliss. It often is. I have a lot of joy in my life, tons of freedom and a great deal of inner peace. I know who I am and where I want to go.

But I earn that by facing the inner demons and doing loads of inner work. So, while this is a difficult juncture, I have faith that on the other side is the next level of health and happiness. Clearing out the old junk might be temporarily messy and exhausting, but it makes way for something new and often unforeseen.

And that makes it all worthwhile.

I guess I really did have something to say about Reiki today after all. It took a minute to sort through what I thought I was supposed to be writing and instead get synched up with what is true for me in this moment. Which is yet another thing that Reiki helps me with. Again, not always easy, but so very therapeutic.

I’m going to keep on showing up for myself and really hope you’ll do the same.

Onwards!

I’d love to hear how it’s going for you. All comments about your experience are welcome here. Just be sure to make it about your experience and avoid offering unsolicited advice to others.

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If you’re wanting to learn how to use Reiki for yourself and friends and family, I have a class coming up soon. No special skills or experience required.